First one, but it's a doozy

So, here I am again. We all have these days...I hope anyway. I just feel...I don't even know how to explain it. Not really depressed, but...yeah, I don't know. I'm kind of discouraged because it feels like half of the marriages of friends my age are ending in divorce. I know it's not quite half, but it just feels that way. It's sad....

I'm also sad b/c I got to see my cousin for the last time before she leaves to go back to Washington in the middle of May. We're 3 months apart and she is so much like a sister. We've lost a lot of contact since we've been separated by so many miles, but I got to spend a lot of time with her this spring and it's been wonderful. Not to mention her absolutely adorable daughter whom I absolutely love!!! And on the baby note...if they're not getting divorced, my friends are all having babies!!!!! I've lost count of them all...seriously.

Now, there's the issue of our house in Searcy. The tenants are great. They've never complained about anything. I don't know what we're going to do w/ the house and they're deciding what they want to do. They kind of asked about us selling it but I haven't heard anything back. I kind of want to sell it just to get rid of it, and then we could get a little money...but I also want to keep it. We're not really making any money off of it. We're actually kind of losing money when you consider taxes and insurance. If we could refinance to lower the payment but keep the rent the same then we could make money but if we try to refinance we're going to have to pay like $4000 because there isn't enough equity in the house to finance it all. We are paying way too much for the house and really got the short end of the stick on the deal, but that's our fault and you live and you learn. On that situation, I just need to be patient and let God decide. I'm trying to decide all for myself and obviously it's getting me no where.

To continue the 'woe-is-me' segment, we don't really have 'friends' here. We have some friends that actually just moved in to the duplex we share a building with. They're a little rough around the edges, but I know God put them there so we could be examples to them. There are a few couples at church that are our age and going back to the divorce paragraph, there's a couple who hasn't been married long and they have a daughter who is over a year old. He went down to Cuba for his deployment. There were issues before he left I think and now they're not any better, obviously. I hope we can help them in their situation. He doesn't come back til AUGUST!! That is so long, too long for a 'marriage on the rocks' if you will.

Anyway, I reckon, yes I said reckon, that is all for today. I'll get off my rear-end and clean house or something. It needs it!!! My dogs stink and they are shedding like crazy! OH, I almost forgot.....TAXES!! We have to pay over $500 this year b/c for Mike's job he doesn't get taxes taken out of his check so now we have to pay...we'll fix that for next time but, it's going to be a pain right now b/c there are a lot of things coming around due, like, house insurance, house taxes, Mike's insurance...those 3 totalling about $1500. :-\ Where's it going to come from???....ok, that's all.....